Ponderings . . .

It was weird on the drive back home I was thinking about how many people have commented on my writing. I started it for myself, but I will continue it for others. I feel very blessed to know that I have helped other through their own trials by my writing.

I feel that I have had some blessing of my own lately. This last year has been a rough one full of ALOT of loneliness but through it all I have learned that I am okay on my own. I do not need someone beside me every step of the way when I have the Lord. I am a strong person.

Its interesting for as much as I have dwelled on being alone I just gave up. I had a really good friend tell me that if I could not be happy on my own then I could never be happy in a relationship. It hurt like hell to hear him say that but it was the truth. Although this person is no longer in my life I know that he was put in my life for a season to help me talk and move on from my losses. To make me laugh and show me how to live again. I will forever be in his debt for this. It hurts , bad that he was only in my life for a season but I wish him nothing but happiness in his life. Anyways sorry random side note :) My blessing . . . . Its amazing when you quit looking for something it comes to you. I resigned my self to the fact that I was just going to be lonely and then wow this week I have had some pretty cool people put into my life. I am really excited to get to know them better and see what my future holds.

Every night I read Jeremiah 29:11 and my plans he has for me are finally coming to light.

Although I have had to go through some hard times and alot of tears to get to where I am now I would not change any of it for it has made me who I am today.